Look, many women are hard on themselves — even on their wedding day (make-believe or otherwise). And Mayim Bialik is no exception.
On the day she shot tonight’s wedding episode of The Big Bang Theory, Bialik said she “didn’t feel beautiful” as Amy Fowler, the gal who captured Sheldon’s heart on the CBS comedy.
Girl, you cray. You’re a vision in that nutty plantation dress!
But Bialik didn’t feel that way. On her website Grok Nation, Bialik confessed that a recent bout of weight gain made her feel insecure and “ashamed” to shoot the episode.
“I had started losing weight a few months ago. Why? Because I needed to,” she wrote. “I was not comfortable at my weight and I started eating much better and exercising and lo and behold; I lost some weight. I felt so much more comfortable in my own skin. And then I got a series of antibiotic-needing bacterial illnesses and was not allowed to work out for a month. And so, I gained the weight back. I wanted to keep losing. And instead I’m back to not being comfortable. So I felt ashamed. I felt like maybe the wardrobe ladies were looking at me like, ‘Oh, she tried to lose weight and maybe she didn’t have the willpower.’ They probably would never think that; it’s my brain thinking that. But that’s the truth. I didn’t feel my best. And I felt crummy about it. Even though everyone said I looked beautiful, I didn’t feel completely beautiful.”
Oh Mayim, we bet about 22 or so million fans will think otherwise after tonight’s episode.
For more of Bialik’s thoughts on the TBBT finale — including how people are already asking when she and Sheldon (Jim Parsons) will have a baby — check out her website here.
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BIG Bang Theory star Mayim Bialik opened up about her struggle with depression in a new video for Mental Health Awareness Month in the US.
In a candid video for the Child Mind Institute’s mental health awareness campaign, the star openly talked about her battle with depression.
“I think what I would have liked to tell my younger self about my mental health is that there are answers,” Bialik said in the video. “For me, some of those answers I had to wait years to find and I needed to get different help, which ended up being really the right kind of help.”
She continued on to encourage others who also struggle with mental health issues and said, “But I had this notion when I was younger that if something didn’t work once, or if a therapist didn’t work, or if a medication didn’t work, that nothing would ever work,” she adds. “I wish I could have told my younger self that something will work — it’s just going to take sometimes more research, sometimes more referrals, and really figuring things out like your life depends on it. Because for me, it did.”
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Earlier this month, Ryan Reynolds opened up about his own mental health struggles.
“I have anxiety, I’ve always had anxiety,” the Deadpool star told The New York Times. “Both in the lighthearted ‘I’m anxious about this’ kind of thing, and I’ve been to the depths of the darker end of the spectrum, which is not fun.”
With success from the sitcom Two Guys, a Girl and a Pizza Place, Reynolds’ early 20s became his “real unhinged phase.”
“I was partying and just trying to make myself vanish in some way,” he admitted.
This story originally appeared in Fox News and is republished here with permission.
Mayim Bialik has an important message for anyone struggling with mental health: Don’t give up on seeking help.
In honor of Mental Health Awareness Month, the Child Mind Institute is partnering with a number of celebrities to release a daily video as part of its #MyYoungerSelf campaign to end the stigma attached to mental health and learning disorders. Recorded at home on their smartphones, the stars are sharing powerful, inspiring messages while speaking to a younger version of themselves.
PEOPLE has your exclusive first look at Bialik’s video, in which the Big Bang Theory star gets candid about her struggle with depression.
“I think what I would have liked to tell my younger self about my mental health is that there are answers,” she says. “For me, some of those answers I had to wait years to find and I needed to get different help, which ended up being really the right kind of help.”
“But I had this notion when I was younger that if something didn’t work once, or if a therapist didn’t work, or if a medication didn’t work, that nothing would ever work,” she adds. “I wish I could have told my younger self that something will work — it’s just going to take sometimes more research, sometimes more referrals, and really figuring things out like your life depends on it. Because for me, it did.”
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The social media campaign brings together more than three dozen actors, Olympians, authors, comedians, advocates and other influencers in the hopes of eliminating stigma by showing children and adolescents who struggle that there is a bright future ahead if they open up and ask for help.
Other celebrities participating this year include Kristen Bell, Mikaela Shiffrin, James Van Der Beek, Gabrielle Union, Brittany Snow and Sarah Silverman.
For more information, visit childmind.org.
